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HappyBigMountain
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09/05/24

Rating: 8/10, Sleep: 7 hours, Work: 7 hours

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Therapy, Craps and Lamb, with a twist of SICP

Walked into the day full of energy and excitement but then realized that the going is rougher than it may seem. I started SICP and while it does take getting used to I think I am going to enjoy this text. It's the first recommendation of the teachyourselfcs program that I decided I would self-study. Craps progress was slow, as I'm still struggling to get basic game actions to sync with my Convex database, but it's okay, I got to spend some quality time with dad over some lamb skewers, then had a great session with my therapist. One of the things we spent a lot of time on was all the things I would tell to those I left behind when I decided to go into exile. I want to tell them I'm sorry for breaking their trust, and acknowledge that they probably can't ever trust me again. My previous self would have rushed to try and fix it by convincing them that I could bounce back in a month. But that's no different from going all in at dice. The truth is that I don't know when I'll ever be able make amends to anyone, and that's okay. Because I am doing well, by investing in myself, and I want them to know that. Maybe they don't want to hear it, but I want them to know they invested in me, and I'm getting stronger with each passing day.

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